Frustrated

Urgh.. i feel like i am being ignored and treated like something or someone im not... i hate this... i feel like the one person that i want to want to talk to me just doesnt seem like he wants to anymore.. or that i did something wrong... or that he is sick of me... im not saying that any of that is true.. just how im feeling... it just seems like things are going in the wrong direction.. i feel a little empty... like a part of me is missing again... i wish i knew how to fill the hole... i wish someone knew that they are making me feel this way... which is not who i am... blah.. i just want to run away from it all and start over again... i want to feel wanted and feel secure with decisions that get mad... and thats not always the case.. this life is a struggle... and one that i have to face... with someone or without.. either way i have to face everything.... i have to believe that i can be what i want to be. there is not stopping me from that... except that i think if i try to be more me then i will be less what they want me to be... and makes me just wanna cry when i think about it.. .i want to be happy and loved and free to be me... i feel like sometimes i hold back from who i want to be... just because i dont want to cause problems.. cause i hate causing any problems with anyone.... URGH.. enough is enough... theres things i cant talk about on here.. cause well that would just start problems that i dont need... so i guess thats all im gonna say for now.... URGH!!

on another note.. Happy Thanksgiving to you all....