Time for a new start

So its been a while... things for me have been a struggle... I am trying to focus on my goals and what i want and not let anything get in the way.. not exactly easy for me to do.. i tend to put everyone else first in my life ... i am back in school.. full time.. which is a great start for me.. i am going for my second bachelors ... this time in the Arts... then hopefully in two years i will be able to go get my masters... thats still kinda up for debate at the moment.. im not sure yet... there are so many things i want to do... im thinking about going to school to become a pastry chef also.. i think that would be so much fun and amazing to be able to create such amazing pieces of art...

I have been with my bf for about 9 months now... its been a journey ... hasnt been easy... but worth it.. i love him... there are days i feel like he's not really there with me.. and other days feels like he never left.... its hard to know... but just like any relationship it takes work and dedication.

I have been working out more.. which is so good for me.. i have a lot more energy and more confidence when i do... so its been something ive been working on to go more and more often.. as well as eating healthier.. which also makes me feel better.. :)

Lately i have really been missing my girlfriends who live back east... :( its sad. its hard cause my best friends live a billion miles away from me... so i cant just call them and say hey lets go do something... its hard for me... i really dont have any girl friends in town.. the closet is still about an hour away... i hate it.. but its life... and we all grow up and move on... or so ive been told.. but i still at least can text them and talk thru facebook and all that stuff...

i just wanna be moving forward in life... and sometimes feels like im falling backwards instead... just wanna find that road to take ... the right one to where im going in life... finding the truth in my happiness and future... life is a journey... its a climb... its a struggle.. its a path that you will always search for something better... i am gonna strive to just enjoy the path i am on and the one i follow...