pissed and venting

i am frustrated and having a horrible day... I am just ready to leave it all behind me and start an new life... Its like i cant make anyone happy... and if i try i fail, and miserably at that... :( this is just stupid... I wish people would show me they care a little more... i know who my true friends are tonight... didnt think it would come to this but it has... at least i have some who care and i know they care... my heart aches and feels so empty and lost... i just wanna be happy... truly... will that day ever come... can i trust without being betrayed, can i love without getting hurt... who knows... i put myself out there on the line and seems like it gets snapped every time.. its a never ending cycle lately.. URGH.... enough is enough.. im so fed up and done.. i feel like im getting walked all over.. and used and abused.. and i just put up with it.. like hey its my life why shouldnt this shit happen to me.... its so confusing ... life and everything in it... AHHH just have to vent a little bit... im done for now...